1/28/12

I stopped taking my medications 7 days ago. I am working on getting pregnant so that doctor advised me that I cannot take my medications during the first trimester of pregnancy.  So instead of flipping out then and putting stress on the baby I decided to see how I would respond to it now and [...]

January 27, 2012
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3-11-11

The end has come to my anxiety!  My doctor called and I am cancer free!  Thank god waiting for a call to find out if you have cancer fucking sucks!  I never want to go through that shit again. So what I was told instead was that I have two elevated Liver Enzyme levels due [...]

March 11, 2011
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11/21/2010

Life has become one normal day after another.  I used to wonder what that was like, a normal day…now I know.  Now I know what it is like again.  I’d forgotten what it was to have a succession of normal days.  It’s funny how such a small amount of “bad” time in comparison to your [...]

November 21, 2010
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8/27/10

I’ve been so bad with writing.  I need to set a diary reminder to make sure I get back here more.  I found it easier to write when things were going bad. Ok so I had another vacation where things went great and when I came no craziness ensued.  In the past returning from a [...]

August 27, 2010
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5/20/10 – OMG

OK I have been sick for over 7 days.  It started as a cold and I believe it has developed into a sinus and ear infection.  I am giving it through the weekend because my friend gave me antibiotics from CANADA and if they don’t work I am on my way to the doctor.  I [...]

May 27, 2010
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4/29/10

I am in search of a book of meditations.  I feel that I need one of those little books, now to find the right one. I am a book whore.  A self help book whore . I have not been writing as much because I have been so busy getting out living life.  It has [...]

April 30, 2010
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4/24/10 What IS

Today I feel at 88%. The medications are making me quite sleepy so today I will go without since today is a Saturday and see how I fair. The work week was horrible so I am glad it is over. Life is getting back to normal.  I need to get my ass back to the [...]

April 24, 2010
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4/20/10 – Rolling Rolling Rolling down Mad Rivers

OK went to the doctor yesterday.  Had problems with focus, concentration and wild obsession.  Side effects from increasing the Lamitcal.  So down down down we go back to the 100mg.  To get myself back to where I was I am taking 25 mg of Seroquel twice a day.  Hard cause it makes me tired.  At [...]

April 20, 2010
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12/20/09

The stockings are hung, the shopping is done, and my spirits are high as a kite.  Family is on its way.  Tonight was Sunday night dinner with the family.  My girlfriend, my puppy and I went as usual and went to the compound for dinner and a movie.  The dinner was magnificent, my father is [...]

December 20, 2009
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8/18/09 – Tuesday

Today was a good day but now I sit here my eyes brimming with tears.  I choke back sobs.  I am sad.  With the lamitcal staving off the depression and my anxiety in check I am letting my body feel the emotions that go with the loss that I am suffering.  Now I find myself [...]

August 18, 2009
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