I stopped taking my medications 7 days ago. I am working on getting pregnant so that doctor advised me that I cannot take my medications during the first trimester of pregnancy. So instead of flipping out then and putting stress on the baby I decided to see how I would respond to it now and [...]
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10/29/11 What do you do when you just want to…
What do you do when all you want to do is fucking scream? My life is so different than it was a year ago hell then it was 4 months ago. Fuck bipolar that shit is easy…..try raising a family that includes a 16 year old and two dogs. I feel fucking old and tired [...]
October 29, 2011
Categories: Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, dep, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: Leave a Comment
7/6/11
It has been a while……. My girlfriends daughter came and is getting ready to go again. She has been here since the end of March. It has been hard but we are getting through it. We are sending her back to Indiana for a month to visit with her friends before school starts because she [...]
July 6, 2011
Categories: Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: Leave a Comment
1/16/11
I’ve been so bad about blogging. It is really true what they say about depression – it breeds so much passion and ability to be creative and fill the pages. Since I last wrote I have moved to Hollywood. In fact I moved this weekend. I am exhausted but so happy I don’t have words [...]
January 16, 2011
Categories: Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: 1 Comment
11/21/2010
Life has become one normal day after another. I used to wonder what that was like, a normal day…now I know. Now I know what it is like again. I’d forgotten what it was to have a succession of normal days. It’s funny how such a small amount of “bad” time in comparison to your [...]
November 21, 2010
Categories: bipolar, bipolar disorder, depression, manic depressive, Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: Leave a Comment
10/26/10
What an insane month!!!!!! My work purchased another agency so I have been immersed in the assistance of a smooth transition. I’ve been going into work at 5am, not taking a lunch and not going home until 5pm. I thought I would be able to go to bed at 8:30 but there are things to [...]
October 26, 2010
Categories: Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: Leave a Comment
10/2/2010
So yesterday was my 39th birthday. My girlfriend surprised me by taking the day off and coming up to spend it with me. It was a day of simple pleasures. My favorite breakfast place. My favorite strawberry cookies. A poem she gave me signed by the author. A day filled with kisses and hugs and [...]
October 2, 2010
Categories: Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: 1 Comment
8/27/10
I’ve been so bad with writing. I need to set a diary reminder to make sure I get back here more. I found it easier to write when things were going bad. Ok so I had another vacation where things went great and when I came no craziness ensued. In the past returning from a [...]
August 27, 2010
Categories: bipolar, bipolar disorder, depression, manic depressive, Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: Leave a Comment
8/10/10
Wow I didn’t realize how long it had been since I had entered a post. Things are still going really well. I still have not gotten back to the gym but I am still pretty active. I am handling stress really well. Work has been stressful. I am in part-time sales and the economy is [...]
August 10, 2010
Categories: Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: Leave a Comment
7/26/10 – I’m Back
I am back from my work/vacation from Texas. The entire trip went off without a hitch. I did get pills from my doctor for the flight up and back and did take them because why even deal with the anxiety if I do not have too. The pills do not make me feel drugged out [...]
July 26, 2010
Categories: Uncategorized . Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, bipolar I, bipolar II, death, depression, dying, mania, Manic, manic depressive, sadness, sober, suicide . Author: shedoescrack . Comments: 1 Comment
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