SHE DOES CRACK

OMG I am exhausted!  I have been getting to work at 6am for the past couple of days because I am going to visit my mother on Monday for the week.  I worked till 8:3o tonight.  I am beat!!! So life has been crazy.  I am dating a crazy person and I like.  I am [...]

July 16, 2010
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Things are going great!  I have been getting to bed on time.  And today!!!  I made dinner for myself and not from a fucking box.  No not a lean cuisine I tell you!  Finally things are falling into place.  Very slowly but again I said it would happen that and that way it did it [...]

July 7, 2010
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3 weeks and I am still sick but I think I am finally seeing this thing to the end! Ok so it has been hard to post because I’ve been sick and my internet has been down at my Thousand Oaks house (and my cable too). So what’s been going on:  life has been good.  [...]

May 27, 2010
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One of my new key phrases that I picked up from a friend.  I ran 5 miles today for the first time in my life.  Sexual tension helped fuel and music helped me through it.  With God being my sponsor I made my way to the end.  God what is that a name a pick [...]

May 3, 2010
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Still having trouble getting back on track, getting my head in the game.  What is going on?  Am I playing games with myself?  We usually do, we usually know what is going on we just don’t say or at least we don’t say it aloud.  Can’t make it real can’t let anyone know.  Reality, the [...]

April 14, 2010
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What do you do when your worlds been torn apart?  My two best friends are no longer friends and here I am stuck in the middle feeling like my two parents are getting a divorce and feeling like one wants me to not love the other anymore. It has been a rough week.  My schedule [...]

April 11, 2010
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Always Your Possession (4/4/10) I tremble As I watch you ascend On your way to possess me again With my eyes wide shut Veiled in stark darkness Your heat ignites me and I relinquish My senses amplify and my body throbs I hunger for your vigor and passion My body feeds on your intoxication I [...]

April 5, 2010
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What a great weekend!  I went shopping.  Needed to with all the weight I’ve lost I had nothing that really fit.  The sun was blazing and it was a nice 82 degrees in the valley.  Gotta love SoCal living. I am going on vacation this week to Palm Springs for the Dinah Shore festival.  I [...]

March 28, 2010
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